Soulmate...

I want you to be the face I awaken to And the voice that puts me to sleep I want your trust, honesty, and secrets to keep You know I hate to see you go But I love to watch you leave But, it is what it is when it needs to be I respect the fact that you'd never lie to me Even if it makes me weak and depressed Your true feelings you'll express With no discretion But that doesn't stop me from missing the affection Living with regrets, and wanting that connection I want to sooth your mind and your flesh Endure your pain and you stress Just to obsess the correct end of our reflection When i stare into your eyes, and take you into my arms. And you shine like the charm on a bracelet For when we run out of patience and decide to have babies And i'll be able to stare and compare her beauty to your face But until that day you'll be the only star in my skies And on the day my disguise is removed and my identity revealed You will have truly experienced me You compliment, and complete me Our lives are opposite and intriguing Yet the same and relieving that if you let me I can understand why your heart beats the way it does And know the reason why you decided to show me love When I was no more than I am now And that you live by the last 3 digits of my life And you ignite as i burst and combust into flames Torching the pain and leaving those lives behind us And every year father time will remind us that we are not easily replaced I want you to be the voice I hear when i awaken And the face I see before slumber I remember the day I got your number Even though it was on some friend shit I couldn't pretend shit... I wanted more And I was relieved to know you felt the same So I continued to let you pick my brain As long as I could remain and retain the decision to ever walk away I want you to speak the thoughts that enlighten my mornings I want you to be the body that puts me to sleep. I need you to know that you were made just for me And I hope you can relate I'd always regret being the ex to my soulmate. -Poetrii

The LGBT Community...

The LGBT (Lesbian, gay, bi-sexual, transsexual) community

STEREO-TYPES AND HYPOCRITES

Most people in the LGBT community are as closed minded as the government is about same sex marriages. They have the nerve, the audacity to say that "It just doesn't look/seem right". Most people seem to have this problem with seeing two studs together, but not two fems. Judging their own and forgetting the fact that "they" don't want to see any of us together. (They are simply thinking with the minds of those who are against them). No man complains about seeing two women be together, but two men, Oh NO! call in the troops. {{ABOMINATION}}. And in the eyes of many two men and two "studs" is a same difference type of situation.We are constantly ostracized and stereo-typed By those who don't agree.Why add to the stupidity that two women can't share the rest of their lives together, or that two men can't fall in love with each other.

When most hetero-sexual people think about LGBT relationships, they don't think of the time and energy put into relationships. They don't think of the compromise and sacrifice. All they ever think about is the SEX. I have never had someone ask me "How can you love a woman." I only get asked"How can you have "sex" with a woman. Because no one actually cares about our feelings, and they didn't have to put in a lot of work to make us look like clowns. For those of you who started being this way in the 9Th grade.For those of you who only use the title but don't actually live up to it.It's not a group or a movement. There is no certain qualifications and no sign up sheet. I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THIS WAY. Whether I said it aloud or not.

Most people see stud on stud as disgusting, but why? Is it because they somehow remind you of a man? BECAUSE MOST STUDS DO! So what does that mean?Does it mean that a fem isn't really gay because she chooses to date a girl who mirrors masculinity, than to date a girl who looks just like she does?Or does it mean that you look at stud on stud like a gay relationship, and for some reason you don't think it's right for two men to be together, but it's OK for two females to be together? When the lights go off tell me what you feel? When those clothes come off, tell me what you see?

A lot of girls use excuses. I'm gay because I can't find a man that will treat me right, so maybe I can find a woman that will. That DOES NOT mean your gay.It means that you didn't have any luck with men so you decided to go about it another way. From my incubator to my grave, I will always be this way.There is nothing nor is there anyone who can tell me otherwise, or make me feel bad about it. And honestly females are no better than men. They lie, they cheat, shit they beat on their girlfriends. It's not about what your with. It's about who you are with. I take this very seriously, this is not my lifestyle it is my LIFE.

There's a lot of negative opinions when it comes to bisexuals. A lot of lesbians feels as though they're just freaks.Just greedy. To claim they have "The best of both worlds" Even though I have had some bad experiences with them I cannot fault all of them for that. Most people think that if they hook up with a bi-sexual then they will mostly likely end up being cheated on with a man. Hell, I don't want to be cheated on with a woman,but I guess it's just an ego thing. I personally respect those who show who they are. A lot of so-called lesbians still fuck dudes, and will leave your ass to be shocked and surprised. At least I know what it is from jump. Ya dig?

Me. I would be labeled as a stud/soft stud/ or faggot. I dress in menswear. I'm mostly the aggressive in the relationship but I'm very soft and sensitive. I'm not all hard when it comes to that. I date fems, studs, and versatiles. I love versatiles.I've always expressed a feminine side of me regardless of what I am wearing. I would date a transsexual man. I would try a lot of things. I should be able to experience anything I want without be judged and criticized. I cannot stress this enough. (If you don't like what I'm serving, then stop eating off of my fucking plate) You don't have to like me, love me, hate me, want me, trust me. You don't have to be in my damn life at all. I just wish people would take the time to understand themselves and others.It would make the world a much better place. A world of peace and acceptance. Opinion and fact. No acts, No masks, No charades. No lies. and our futures would be a lot brighter.(Our futures wouldn't be altered by past mistakes). Meaning, Our youth won't be affected by the opinions of their elders.

-Poetrii

Between

Caught between my thoughts and her fears I hope she can hear my screams whispered in the air I hope this gives her a taste of what's real I hope she feeds me knowledge from her soul Not her tears I want her to know that I'm there And that I care about every situation that involves she Because any danger towards her, harms me And I need her to give me only what she can actually be So that we may help each other progress and succeed Conquer all that we see and show them a love so pure Even though it's tainted with tarnished innocence And extreme consequences from mistakes of the past And revolve around the fact that I've come to the point where I can't stand it So I panic Got me frantic and acting out of impulse Over indulging in negative thoughts that I ponder towards us And it could possibly cause my insanity But I'm not stressed on my possibilities I'm thinking of what we can be And I'll stick around for as long as she'll have me And I'll gladly show her the support of her whole family Be around her to the point where she can't stand me But only because she wishes to lay chest to chest Lips to lips...My arms around her hips And I'll make the sweetest love to her Tasting the sweetest part of her Willingly confined between her thighs Staring between the darkness into her eyes Caught between my thoughts and her fears I hope she can hear my screams whispered in the air I hope this gives her a taste of what's real I hope she feeds me knowledge from her soul Not her tears -Poetrii

Land of the free

I always wondered when life would lay me flat on my ass A punch for prices, A kick for taxes, and I'm choking off gas K.O'd in the first round Laying comfortably on a mattress laid unwillingly on the ground With no ability to afford bills, so my phone makes no sound And I look down realizing that I can't fall any further The placement, the racism, the projects are like murder and The corporate ladder is like suicide yet everyone wishes to reach the top Simply to drop and fall face first into piles of bullshit Yet I stand in line for the suicide attempt and Commit to stepping on toes and Leaving the weak to die and Even though it's not how I really feel inside I know that I have to claim a position or Rob and steal, cop rocks and kill cops just to cop a feel of insanity For just one moment we can be all we can be But sadly the world is drastically hitting an all time low They're on top, we're beneath the bottom Trying not to drop the beat and lose the flow And contrary to popular belief Hell isn't beneath you feet, It's right outside your window The land of the free? Yeah they unlocked the chains and shackles but see how far you go Even after being released by the demon We still find ourselves chasing freedom and Dreaming that the lights won't shut off before the children finish eating Still hiding, still pleading, and fleeing towards the border Fending for disorder Because that's the only way we can cope in this coup and We put on shows for advances and forbidden fruits Jumping through blazing hoops with fire right beneath your ass and Your a little to dark to be shining? There's obviously not enough cash and The richest country in the world? No comment. Dropping bombs in places raging war and nonsense Keeping the poor, poor is timeless, And unnecessary to preach to congress Unless it's somehow related to their checks and our stress Hiding between crimes, cutting corners and unemployment lines While they wine and dine and somehow forget to have the time for those less fortunate Instead they torture them Steal from the poor and give to the rich, Ain't that a bitch There must be a glitch in the system. I say we shall overcome But it seems the crowd isn't listening Because they're deafened by the sight of shit and blinded by the noise They want to keep our men boys, So they dropped guns in the hood And tell them to sit on their corners and play with their toys To be toe tagged by the coroner and once again pushed aside Letting us know with no discretion that we aren't welcomed to live where they reside. Besides, what do they have to hide. Nothing if you take out the conspiracy the entrapment and the lies. What's a black girl left to be without a pole and some thighs And weed is supposedly illegal so they can keep us from flying high But somehow newports and henessy are allowed to keep us from the skies And as hard as we try we can't seem to figure out why life isn't fair Tired, run down and unfair because, life is despair and has cornered us. And the only reason they went along with "black" instead of "African American" Is because they're scared of us and want our color to has no ties to America With a little bit of equality do you know what we could be? I could be them and they could be me, as long as I controlled this world selflessly.

Maybe I Am..

I bet you never thought that... I'd be an alcoholic Drug addicted Deceiving, cheating Lover's mistress Conniving, manipulativeDishonest trickster A theivingPoverty stricken heathen Lost somewhere and never leaving Well, That's because It wasn't for you to think about Maybe you haven't entirely read my story within and throughout Maybe you skimmed through the pages, thumbed past ages Or never experienced my stages of amazement But even if you did your behavior is offensive and repugnant Who are you to pass judgement Who are you to say I was when I wasn't This loving, trusting Distracted from nothing Effecient flamboyant Stimulating, annoying Captivating woman Maybe I am, Or maybe you just see me as This procrastinating lone soldier Depressed and desperate for arms to hold her Zealous, fraudulent A winner of The center of attention for the moment And it's brief leaving me time to Sneak, and replinish, start the unfinished Look into your eyes while your talking But show you a face that'll have you questioning if i'm listening Maybe I'm still in transition Maybe I dropped knowledge to pick up a little wisdom Maybe I decided to be four eyes because contacts couldn't show me a clearer image Or maybe I sleep with my eyes open to see a brighter vision Maybe me and my alter ego accidently had a collision Maybe I am not the joke you take me for The player, the liar, the cheater, the whore Maybe I despise the rich and cry for the poor Just maybe I am what the world was looking for Broadening my thoughts to change the worlds condition I am tranquility, peace, and serenity Surrender to me, I am the epitome, I am poetrii. I am simply definition.

Religion

PREVIOUSLY ON "Is it possible to stop being gay"... Also I know you have to be wondering. "How does the "Ex-Atheist" shirt fit in with this?" Because it's all the same. People who wander in and out of different things have no sense of direction. They see a group of people that believe in something and they try it. There's no way in this world that I'm going to be an atheist today, then a god fearing woman the next day. Because once again that means that I was never an atheist. It just proves that most people are followers, and the rest are manipulators. I say something and you better believe it. They say don't question "God". Why? BECAUSE NO ONE HAS ANY ANSWERS! I refuse to commit my life to someone that I can not see or hear, And I don't believe anything without proof. At some point in life we as a people will cease to be in denial. We will see things for what they are instead of what we want them to be. CONTINUED... Religion to me is just something to get people through the day. It's something that makes them feel like everything is OK. It keeps them from reality. A blind eye to flaws and destruction.If it didn't then they would see the reality of shit. Just think about it. They say that a person can only die when god feels as if it's their time to go. At the same time do you people not seethe punishment. Your "God" isn't so friendly now is he. Ok ok. I understand people feel as though they won't die until it's their time but does it have to be so vulgar, so brutal, so bloody.5 year olds getting decapitated. 8 year olds forced to be suicide bombers. Massacres, murders, Manslaughter, Drowning, suffocating, plane crashes, fires, AIDS, cancer, being hung from a tree. Jeez where's the dignity, the love, the honor. It's nowhere. What about the fact that life itself is a punishment. You're born, you suffer, THEN YOU FUCKING DIE! I'm not seeing the fatherly love. Also,the contradictions should be enough to get your brain ticking. Jealousy is definitely a sin,yet your "god" Is a jealous god. Hmm? He can sin, but we can't. What about the fact that he supposedly creates every person exactly how he wants them to be. YET he shuns the rapists, murderers, and homosexuals. Etc. I don't understand "HE" made them this way. He sits up in "Heaven" and he watches us struggle, and be raped, murdered, fucked over.Is that all he's good for? Unless he does something miraculous (Like me being in a plane crash and falling out onto a big ass pile of money that saves my life, no injuries, no bruises and I can keep it all for myself) Then I don't believe it. If no one ever taught you this. Then what would you believe in? Nothing. Yourself, instead of this illusion. Then you would have to see shit for what the fuck it really is. -Poetrii

Ex- Homosexual

Is it possible to stop being gay...

I just seen this youtube video entitled "Is it possible to stop being gay" and I must say STOP IT...Stop it.The chicks vid wouldn't let me post my comment but this was my response: "Wow. This is really stupid. That doesn't even make any sense. You did that shit for years YOU LIKED THAT SHIT! But it was gross? Hmm. I see the bible is full of contradictions so the people who read it must be too? Makes sense. You never were "gay" because it was just so easy for you to suddenly like men again. That's stupid. You weren't a lesbian...You were a FREAK. You wanted to try that shit and you did. (Seems someone couldn't take the pressure). So you ran back to what is seemingly the right thing to do. You people are just ridiculous. Your so caught up in the bullshit that you can't even live your lives. smh. Guess if I believed anything someone told me then i could say "I'd pray for you" But since I don't you can drown in a river of holy water for all I care...Gross? ugh whatever."

{ATTENTION}: I KNOW THAT THERE ARE ALOT OF YOU WHO DO BELIEVE IN GOD. I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW..........THAT DOES NOT CHANGE MY OPINION IN THE LEAST BIT.WHAT YOU THINK DOES NOT CONCERN ME. AND VICE VERSA I'M SURE. So ANYWAY...

People are so ignorant to just about everything these days. I mean excuse me for having a mind of my own. I do apologize. (LOL) Not really.

FIRST

Don't get me wrong to each his own...But religion directly bashes me. Which makes it personal.EVERYTHING is a sin. Who cares. Who gives a shit. SUPPOSEDLY if I kill a mothafucka or If I stab someone it's a sin but what I know is that they told me.."No matter what I do...All I have to do is repent and accept god before I leave this earth and I will go to heaven or be accepted by god"Some old bullshit! If that's the case then why is it so bad to be a sinner in the first place. What the fuck kind of harm has me being gay caused you? Huh? What's so bad about me doing what I want to do with MY life? I can't sleep with a women...But an old ass white man Can fuck little boys and as soon as he's finished busting his nut he kindly walks into his reading room, and quietly sits at his desk.And starts a new chapter of the bible? Get the fuck out of here.

SECOND

I'm a bitch, I'll always be a bitch and that's just the way it is. I'm a lesbian, I'll always be A lesbian because that's who I am... Not who I chose to be. And there isn't any fucking way you can tell me otherwise. You are what you are, as simple as that. But your not going to tell me "oh, well I was gay for a couple years and then one day when I woke up with the smell of a women around my mouth, god slapped me in the face and told me it was wrong. And I knew he was right. So I changed my ways.And even though I claimed to "love" women, I know longer look at them that way and I like men and I'm just so glad god changed me back"??? Seriously? Like no...wait. *Drinks a sip of kool-aid* Your serious. This makes sense to you? You tell me that this makes sense to you and that you have proof of these incidents then hit me up on twitter dude cause I wanna know.Drop a note on myfacebook...Enlighten me gotdammit.

LAST, THIRD, WHATEVER.

I thought "Only god can judge me". And that's funny because all of these holy-rollers, and choir members, and preachers, and those of you who put your hard earned money in the collection plate.YOU KEEP JUDGING ME. I know what the fuck I'm doing. You people don't even follow what you say.Yet I continue to be harassed by people trying to get me to believe. Believe something that you only believe because that's what you've always known and feels you have to. SINNER, SINNER, SINNER!The opposite of a sinner, is someone who's perfect. NO ONE IS PERFECT. Yet that's what you claim to be. Because if you aren't perfect then your a sinner. Wow you people just make this too easy.

Also I know you have to be wondering. "How does the "Ex-Atheist" shirt fit in with this?" Because it's all the same. People who wander in and out of different things have no sense of direction. They see a group of people that beleive in something and they try it. There's no way in this world that I'm going to be an atheist today, then a god fearing woman the next day. Because once again that means that I was never an atheist. It just proves that most people are followers, and the rest are manipulators. I say something and you better believe it. They say don't question "God". Why? BECAUSE NO ONE HAS ANY ANSWERS! I refuse to commit my life to someone that I can not see or hear, And I don't believe anything without proof. At some point in life we as a people will cease to be in denial. We will see things for what they are instead of what we want them to be. (This will be continued into an entirely different blog).

If you like it, I love it.

If you agree, Cool we can converse.

If you don't we can debate.

If your straight going to be a child and a bitch about it then FUCK YOU!

You don't give a shit, and I don't give a fuck.

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-Poetrii

Get over it.

Let me first say I love micheal jackson, But this is exactly what i'm talkingabout. People put more attention into entertainment, instead of things thatactually matter. More people are concerned with grieving for a man that theydon't personally know. Instead of talking about korea blowing us off of the map.Instead of talking about the increases in heat, and the fact that increases in humidity have killed over 100,000 people in the past year, and that they may actuallybe the cause to our doom. What about the fact that the war was supposedly over yet peopleare still being killed over seas. What about pollution slowly killing us. The fact that computers run the world, and if something so happens to happen to it then once again we'redoomed.But why think about that when we know absolutely nothing about what's happening aroundus. We know nothing about the people who surround and control us. All we think about arethings that entertain us. Rappers, singers, basketball/football players. These people whoget paid MORE than those who protect us, more than those who save our lives. PRIORITY. It'sall about priorities people.

Who is "Poetrii"

I have always had my own way of thinking. I always will. If I have something to say, I'm going to say it. I feel like the only friend that can calm me is my pen. Poetry is me. I express how I feel, and can express how others are feeling as well. Knowledge. It's everything. It's not just having it but teaching it. Presenting yourself as if your intelligent. Digging deeper than you have to. Watching things from a distance instead of actually experiencing things is my m.o. I think that a lot of things/people are extremely stupid and a waste of my time. I'd rather just sit back and watch. Knowing that secrets only stay secrets for a short amount of time. And that whatever you do. Somehow it's going to end up completely altering your life in a negative way. Instead of diving head first into the shallow waters of life... I decided to just stick my feet in a little. Leaving me to enjoy the water at your expense. Everything is numbers every one's in categories. It's simple division. Simple thought :

Most people do not understand me. As hard as they try, or as much as they don't care, they can never fully understand. Most people just accept it. It's exciting to accept and believe in what you don't fully understand. Most people are feeble minded, easily manipulated embiciles. Knowledge and power starts with common sense.

I do not wish to be anyones monkey. Most people don't realize that they are merely entertainment. They don't realize when they are dancing like porch monkeys in the middle of the plantation. Alot of people don't stop and think. Take the time to just relax and observe. Understand what and who they are. To appreciate those things that can only speak to your mind. No one understands "life" but I make it my business to know how to get through it. I want alot of things out of life, and as negative as it is... my determination will never die. My mystery will never be revealed.